It’s been a year and a half since we last spoke. Many things has happened since then… I moved to a different state, started a new career, and found myself on an emotional roller coaster that I am desperately trying to get off.
I lie awake at nights wondering what happened…….
After dating for many years, I waited for you to call me your girlfriend. Then suddenly you found another girl and you immediately called her your girlfriend.
How stupid of me to pour everything I had into our relationship. How stupid of me to believe that you will love me the way I loved you. I felt deep down that we truly belonged together, yet you strung me along while you waited for another girl.
I tried to move on with my life, but then I found out you got engaged a year after dating her. What hurts me the most, is that the person I loved that couldnt commit to me…. committed to someone else. It left me with so many questions that I ask myself daily……
Why not me?
Am I cursed?
Will I ever heal?
Will I ever find another?
Why do I keep meeting others just like you?…..
But I cant find another… not until I get over you…. And thats where my problem lies…. I am desperately trying to mend the wound that you left behind. But I find it harder each day and noticing how much deeper it is that I thought.
I wish I can say everything I wanted to say to you, but I guess the only thing I can say to you is…